Yesterday at the game I hurt my knee again. I am very sick of doing that.
I made this unbelievable mixtape for before games though. Holy shit.

our lady peace // all for you
afi // days of the phoenix
alkaline trio // crawl
rx bandits // analog boy
at the drive-in // one armed scissor
thursday // cross out the eyes
alkaline trio // metro
rx bandits // nothing sacred
the vines // get free
thursday // how long is the night
pennywise // alien
alkaline trio // private eye
the (international) noise conspiracy // up for sale
hot water music // paper thin
refused // new noise

Also, I got to thinking last night. I hate the way that the American public is expected to function solely based on how other people perceive them. I hate the way everything is so influenced by outside opinions. I also hate the way girls are bombarded with images of beauty and expected to look exactly like that.
Fuck all that.
That's the reason I was unhappy.. because I'm not 110 pounds, I'm not the perfect image of beauty.
And I'm fine with that.
Because that's me.

I think that's all a big joke. Maybe if I tell myself that enough, I will believe it.

School. Will be horrible. Alienated everyone. Be exactly like me, think like I do, dress like I do, hate the world. Then you can talk to me. Otherwise, you're not angsty enough for me.
Take your pretty face, your American Eagle, your superficiality and shove it up your ass. You'll learn.
Or will I be the one who learns?


Last night, I had a dream that I was walking around school. I was walking and Brian came up to me... he was like, "Did you hear what happened to Christimas Crisp?" And I was confused... so he took me to this classroom, and there was a substitute teacher. We made fun of him for a while, and he threw the two of us out.
We walked to the auditorium, and I heard something in there, so I walked in.
And on the stage was Alkaline Trio!
They brought me up on stage and let me sing Stupid Kid.
Then they played "As You Were" and "This is Getting Over You" and "Crawl" and some other songs I didn't recognize. At the end, they played "Radio" and then they dedicated the concert to me.
It was fabulous.